I decided to be a SMBC earlier this year and can't believe that I'm actually about to inject myself with Lupron tomorrow. Even though I was 'trained' in how to give myself injections at my doctor's office a couple weeks ago I just didn't process that I would actually be shooting myself up with fertility injectibles.
THEN three gigantic boxes were delivered by FedEx that contained all my meds: Lupron, Menopur, Bravelle, Estradiol, Doxycycline, Novarel... the reality of what I'm about to do to myself hit me and I immediately went into denial. Once the boxes were opened I just left them there on the floor until the next day. 'Overwhelmed' doesn't come close to describing what I was feeling but it's a fair start.
But I have been on BCP for three months and after wrapping my brain around this leap I made I told myself, this is the only way to get to the babies I have been dreaming of into my actual life.
I had my baseline ultrasound yesterday, finally get off BCP on Monday, go back for another ultrasound in less than 2 weeks, egg retrieval and transfer some time after that, God willing!
Got my act together and began to open all these boxes and get everything unpacked and sorted. Got the injection instructions out and reviewed them. Got on Youtube and found some great videos that walked me through how to give myself the injections. Began this blog that I hope will help me process all my feelings about this exciting, extraordinary, lonely, blessed journey.
I got this... tomorrow morning I'm going to give myself my very first Lupron shot!