Rollin', Rollin', Rollin'

One of the twins is rolling!! Dude's on his stomach in his crib one minute, then on his back the next -- he's got the crib roll down, & when I go in to pick him up it takes him a few seconds to find my eyes, then the sweetest smile. The other one's too busy laughing to himself in his crib, but he was the first to master the airplane pose. Now they both do it!! When they're in the pose they're grunting, working hard at strengthening their baby abs.

They're also sitting up!! One has more of a forward lean than the other but with each day they can sit up for longer stretches of time. Today they're up to 3 minutes each. And don't let something have their attention while they're working out -- one sticks out his tongue, the other his bottom lip, both eyes fixed with intensity on whatever toy or teething object's within reach.

And they love sweet potatoes!! They still only get mostly breast milk, but I'm working on incorporating some baby food. They've only had some spoonfuls over the last few weeks. The biggest hurdle was getting them used to eating from a spoon with rice cereal. The pediatrician said not to put cereal in their bottles but feed from a spoon instead, but they kept pushing the spoon out of their mouths with their tiny tongues.

So little by little they've been eating from a spoon. Most of the baby food winds up on their faces or their bib, how adorable. But what's hilarious is when they each grab my hand that's holding the spoon & bring it to their mouths. It's awesome to see them enjoy food & want more. So far they like the taste of bananas as well as sweet potatoes. They'll tolerate prunes & can't stand peas. (The peas do taste nasty.)

These brothers are wearing me out!! We spend a lot of time on the floor between naps -- going back & forth between them to ensure I give them equal sit up practice, for example, is more than a notion. It's a constant juggle floor-working with them both that sometimes I have to rest my eyes for at least 10 seconds before moving on to the next activity.

Exersaucer til bored & cranky- floor for sitting, airplane/tummy work, rolling, chilling til bored & cranky - back to activity center til cranky & tired - nap. And the cycle continues. And I am SO GLAD when it's nap time!! Thank you, Jesus!! Then I start to miss them & can't wait for them to wake up. It's madness.

I think I'm training them when, in fact, they're training me. And I'm loving it.

And did I mention that my hair's been falling out? What the hell --

Hairline's looking sparse, scalp's way too visible. Didn't hear about that post-partum action... & my joints are all creaky as they readjust, who knew? I also have mommy thumb on both hands, ain't never even heard about that until I googled 'thumb pain' & the auto fill added 'mommy thumb'. Ain't that a blip --

Do They Know Me?

Just came from picking up twins from a friend's house. She was holding one of them, & when I came into the room & saw him he just looked at me. Then she said that, wow, she thought he would have leapt into my arms. That hurt! Did I mention that she's a mom to a 1 & 3 year old who might know what to say & what not to say to new moms?

He hadn't napped all morning so when I saw him & he had no reaction that's all that came to mind. Until she said what she said. When I loaded everyone into the car I got online & started googling: when do babies know their mother?

They always know them, their scent, their voice. I get that. And there are many times when their faces light up and they start to coo & laugh when I pick them up or we make eye contact. Now I'm starting to analyze things & I'm not in the mood for it.

An online article said that at about 6 months they for sure know who their mothers are. Mine are 5.5 so maybe in another couple of weeks?! Or maybe this was an anomaly & I shouldn't fret. But now I am.

Sleep When They Sleep...

My *ss!! My eyes are burning, they're so tired... I just awoke from a 30-minute nap because they finally decided to take a nap. Decided to write real quick because I gotta get better documenting some of the adjustments I'm having to make.

They're so darling, these little boys. When one gets tired he usually lets out a yell & a few whimpers so I put him in his crib & he's good to go. Usually. Poor kid seems gassy -- tried to give him a bottle but he refused it. Screamed like he was getting paid to do it.

The other one...

That kid's a fighter!! He'll laugh, cry, writhe, want to play, everything but want to nap. Then when it seems like he can't maintain the resistance he surrenders. Grasps his pacifier, laughs some, & eyes close for his nap.

We ran errands today so that threw them off & it doesn't help that I've been struggling to maintain some kind of schedule.

It also doesn't help that I'm checking to make sure they're breathing constantly. That & trying to do laundry, washing a ka-jillion bottles, bathing myself every other day, maybe getting in a meal, etc. And I've been watching the Zimmerman trial, have to witness for myself.

By the way, I have the summer off in case you were wondering: Wow, she's a stay at home single mom? Is she living off a trust? Don't I wish!! Got pets to care for too so a girlfriend's plate is full.

Being an SMBC with twins ain't no joke -- there's NO ONE around now to help with baths, feedings, playing. And I just can't believe how well I'm doing, if I may say. It's definitely a struggle & I do feel guilty that the things I planned to do -- read to them every night is the main one -- I'm just way toooooooooo tired to do every night. And I planned to ban the TV... but hell no!! I use that baby cable channel to help me take a break or get stuff done. I would be completely bananas without it --

I just re-read this post & it's lacking a little coherence. Can't fix it because I'm too tired. And I'm not gonna take another nap because I'm actually too tired to sleep... & somebody's gonna get up soon!!