Sunday, June 3, 2012

Wish I Could Test

9dp3dt! I wish I could take a pregnancy test.  I go in for my beta on Friday, but it would be such a comfort to know ahead of time. I had to take another HCG booster shot yesterday so even if I wanted to test I couldn't (have had a total of 4 HCG booster shots since ET).

During IVF #1 I tested before going to the doctor's office for the official test. When I got the results I felt terrible but it didn't sting as much because I was somewhat prepared. But this cycle isn't affording me the luxury. That's ok -- I'd rather take a booster shot everyday with the hopes that I'm increasing my chances than not, thank you, Lord.

Been feeling PMS-y these last couple days, no side effects (i.e., 'symptoms') to speak of. Booty's starting to feel sore from the PIO shots too. I went out on Friday night & had to pre-fill a syringe & shoot up in a public washroom before rejoining my peoples.

Just have to hang on for 5 more days! Argh!! Funny thing about time, though, is it drags & goes by quickly at the same time.  ET was 9 days ago even though it seems like it was just yesterday. But now I have to wait 5 more days & that feels like an eternity. Work this week will be slower than last week as well so I'm going to have to keep myself busy. Main concern is that around this time during IVF #1 I started to lose hope, my spirit knew it didn't work. Right now I'm not there, which is a good thing. I want to remain hopeful & keep my faith in this until I find out on Friday. To lose hope earlier than that would truly hurt.

I wish somebody would invent a micro-nano-super powerful ultrasound machine that would be able to see implantation! Turn a 2ww into a 1ww... anybody can hold out for just about anything for a week. Having to wait for 2 is like trying to stay above water while having an anchor tied to your leg.

Thank God the sun is out! If this were a grey-er day, I'd be in the bed & would stay there til Friday!

6 comments:

  1. Hang in there, Gigi, you are doing great. The second week is always the worst! I agree, with all the advances in technology one would think someone could come up with a way of detecting implantation sooner :-(
    Just curious, why the HCG booster?

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    1. From what I understand the booster shot tells the ovaries to make more progesterone. I suppose it supplements PIO to encourage implantation. About a day after the booster my ovaries start to ache. The danger is increasing the chances of OHSS but given my stats that was less of a worry.

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  2. Hang in there and keep up the positive attitude. You're very right about time passing so fast and also so slow. For me the ET seemed like weeks ago. Okay, don't read my blog until Friday, I'm in that bad place.

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  3. I'm not even to the transfer yet and am so mixed up. So I can understand the desire to hide until Friday. :-( You are in my thoughts. Try not to let your mind run away from you too much.

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    1. (i'll try! you're in my thoughts too :-)

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